Agony and Despair

One year... We've only been lovers for just a year now... I told her once that she should be ready of the time that we wont be so mushy and that we wont be missing each other that much... I really dont know whether to wish for that day to come or not... If that day comes. There will only be two possible reasons... The first thing is that we have jobs and we are very focused on what we're doing... The other and the bad reason is that we're starting to feel less about each other... And I don't want that...

I've been thinking... AGAIN? yes... I've been thinking this past few nights... Since its sem break for me... I have all day to think of her... I told her that she shouldn't be thinking of me so much when we're not together... She said she'll try it... But I realized that it is a bad thing to give advices that you can't follow especially if it applies to you too! I really can't find a way to tell myself not to think of her... I can't help myself but worry and miss her... Right now... I can't sleep and its already past 11pm... I must sleep early because i need to get up early play tennis with my dad and sister... I cant because I miss her SOOOOOO MUCH!!!! I want to hate myself for feeling this way but I can't do anything about it!!! (wow i'm looping sentences...)

Anyways... I just miss you mahal! I really do!

The reason why I told you those "bad" things earlier (about being unfaithful) is because I really mean it...
Its a good thing I know that would never happen! (Whew) Hee hee!

Goodluck in your work. Be strong! Stay healthy! Godspeed! I love you!!!

I LOVE YOU!